I'm Serious. I'm Kidding.

I’m just coming out of my first quarter-life crisis  that started when I was around 23 or 24. For the past six years this crisis has assisted in me making horrible life choices many of you are well aware of such as, deciding to go to law school, peeing behind dumpsters, throwing up in my mouth and sleeping with anywhere from a few to a plethora of people (just sleeping, cool it, Mom). It was like I didn’t know what I wanted in life, but I secretly did know, but I was terrified at the thought of what I knew I truly wanted coming to the surface because of fear of failure, so simultaneously as I would say I didn’t know what I wanted, I was also saying I knew what I wanted (i.e. law school, and sleepovers). Which ultimately was I knew that what I was saying I wanted to myself and others wasn’t what I knew I really wanted, just something I knew people would want to hear, and knew what I would want myself to hear to seem to be a normal functioning member of society. Deep down I knew wh

The past year or so has made me notice that my best days are the days I wake up with something to look forward to. I know that sounds extremely, horribly so very sad, but tonight's episode of Glee was the reason this week.  Every TV show, every movie I've ever cried during, doesn't hold a candle to tonight's  Glee tribute to Finn/Cory. For this moment it was art imitating life. Here are my thoughts quick thoughts, for now, since I haven't processed that Cory is gone, and now Finn is as well: I will keep it real to you guys, I didn't start to tear until a quarter through  Seasons of Love.   It wasn't until  I'll Stand By You with the help from Darren Criss, who's real life pain about his loss of Cory could be read on his face and in his watery eyes, that I started to bawl my eyes out and not stop until the commercial break. Then it was basically a rinse and repeat until the credits. I can't tell you if this is the best episode of a TV sho

We're approaching it. You know... The   Quarterback . The Glee episode giving a memorial to Cory Monteith's character ,  Finn Hudson. I will be crying and drinking heavily during it. So please brace yourselves for any drunk texts, voicemails or social media updates, that look, or sound like I’m being attacked violently but a bum with a rusty pipe. It’s just me…still grieving. So here , in no particular order, are 12 of my favorite Finn/Cory songs Don't Stop Believin'  FOX and their premieres do something to me. It was this final performance from the pilot that had sign the commitment form that I would be attending Glee come fall 2009. Hello, I Love You I love any performance where Cory is playing the drums, its organic, since he was a drummer and all. Faithfully It's very hard not to love this performance for anyone who shipped Rachel and Finn for the previous 21 episodes. There was the same chemistry from then first did  Don't Stop Beli

Gotta write. I have an urge. Like a heroin addict needs a hit.   Let's see...what to write about... Old School Classics I finally watched the 1967 film  Valley of the Dolls  yesterday. HUGE spoiler alert... dolls mean pills. That's what the 60s were for actors. It was nice to finally see Sharon Tate alive and not her murdered body* which I had never seen because I'm weird  and before then have never seen her other than when I  Googled murdered celebrities of y ester-year and had seen her death photos. She was good in that movie and seemed like she was a really cool lady. Fun Fact: Patty Duke stars in the movie. Oh is that not fun to you? One of her sons is Sean Astin...from T he Goonies...  no? Um...Rudy...Sean was Rudy...from RUDY.... *Charles Manson and his "family" brutally murdered Sharon Tate two years later Government Shutdown As I'm writing this it has already happened. Hey. Hey, you reading this...are you still alive? Phewwww. Good! I